I write those words and test the truth of them and yes, this is how it feels right now. It's how I feel.
I'm in the middle of transition. My job ended a month ago and apart from my side business, I'm not sure what's next. I no longer have something orienting my days. No career, no husband or children. Just me, my books, my writing, and The Enneagram Coach. This is not how I envisioned my life.
Sure, I'm free for weekday coffee and last minute babysitting requests. I joke about how my friends should take advantage of my free time while repressing frets over what's next and how the bills will be paid. There's this feeling deep down it will all work out and I should take advantage of this free time myself but then the next moment comes and I'll chalk it up to wishful thinking.
This is when Barbara Brown Taylor's words come to mind.
I'm so excited about this month's book! How about some vulnerability in the meantime? Head on over to The Red Couch to read the rest.