Picture by Claire DeBoer
I am a woman with a youthful face and calm exterior. I am wise beyond my years, yearning to listen, comfort, and console. I am in transit, scanning the horizon for what might be next.
I want my dreams to come true. I want to write books, mother children, and explore the world with a good man by my side. I want to leave the world a better place. I want God to say, "well done, good and faithful servant."
I feel the ground shifting beneath me. Change is afoot, though I know not how or when or why. This is fallow ground.
I wonder when this season will shift. There is beauty in my life and there is pain. I wait to see what is required of me. I wonder how I will respond once I know.
I fear life will pass me by or that I've missed my chance. I fear choosing the comfortable route over the road less traveled by.
I hope the lessons I've learned this past year will settle down deep, growing roots until they are an intrinsic part of this sanctified me.
I try to be still and wait. I try to grow and prepare myself. I try to choose that which is better.
I believe I am enough and once day I will no longer need to daily remind myself of this truth. I believe God created me fearfully and wonderfully. He made no mistake when He dreamed me up.
I dream of living a life that encourages others to believe the truth of who they are. I dream of making a difference in one life or maybe more. I dream of contentment.
I am me. I am Leigh Elizabeth Kramer, daughter, friend, counselor, beloved child of God. I am a writer and an artist, a dreamer and a learner. I am confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
This is as vulnerable as it gets, folks. I didn't let myself edit any part of it. This is the first draft. It was inspired by the I AM poem prompt we did during the Amahoro writing workshop. I started out thinking it would be a confident, empowering take but it went in an altogether different direction. Tears were shed while writing these pieces and then reading them out loud.
At some point, She Loves Magazine will share a few of the responses written by participants and I cannot wait for you to read them. So powerful, so good. If you want to write your own, simply follow this formula. Each section begins with a different "I" statement: I am, I want, I feel, I wonder, I fear, I hope, I try, I believe, I dream, I AM.