"Grace and holiness are both the first page and the last page of the story. We are always being found by God. And if we pay attention, we recognize God's good gifts. We gather them, look closely at them, and lift them to the golden sky." -Found, Micha Boyett
I waited for Micha Boyett's forthcoming spiritual memoir as anxiously as if it was my own. After finding her blog a few years ago, I recognized a kindred spirit and drew strength from her insights on the Benedictine way of life. I could not wait to see what she could do within the pages of a book.
When an advance copy arrived in my mailbox a couple of months ago, I anticipated diving in straightaway. Until I remembered: her book was also about motherhood.
I write a fair amount of singleness but haven't much touched on the other side of that. As much as I long to be a wife, I also long to be a mother. I thought I'd be a mother a few times over by now but that's not the way it's turned out. Most days I'm OK with this.
Every once in a while, it turns out I'm momentarily very much not OK with it. When those feelings well up, I give myself permission to grieve what I thought would be, what I fear will never be.
The day Found appeared in my mailbox was such a time. I don't remember now what brought those feelings to the surface. Griefbursts generally don't need a reason.
I read a few pages and then set it aside for the night. It was beautifully written but I was not in a place to accept her words. As much as I wished I could brush my feelings aside (This was my friend's book! The one I'd been waiting for!), I couldn't. I picked up one of the other several books I was in the middle of instead. Tomorrow would be a new day.
And it was. The next day I picked Found back up and settled in to its pages and rhythms, each section taking us further in to Benedictine prayer and liturgy. I could not stop reading, underlining, marveling over how much I related. Even though our lives look different. Even though Micha is, in many ways, living a life I'd like to lead myself. I had no idea how deeply it would resonate with me.
Because Found is not just about spirituality or motherhood or prayer. It is all these things but it is really one woman's journey of discovery. It is about how Micha grew to know God in a whole new way. Her openness and honesty about this process is a gift to us.
I am better for reading Found.
Truly. Certain lines and concepts hit so hard, I brought them up with my counselor. (Micha and I often commiserate over being Type Four. We have so many feeeeeeelings about it.)
But you're not a Four? Or a mother? Or a woman, for that matter? Micha's book is still for you. It's for all of us.
I highly recommend Found. Beautifully written, lovely, engaging, insightful. Truly a breath of fresh air. My soul exhaled when I read the final page. I can't wait to see what Micha does next.
Micha Boyett is graciously giving away one copy of Found to a reader. The giveaway is open to those in the US only and ends Friday at midnight. I'll be away at the Festival of Faith and Writing the next few days and will pick a winner once I'm back in town. The winner will have 48 hours to acknowledge their prize or I will pick a new winner.
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