Leigh Kramer

What I'm Into (January Edition)

I must say January is shaping up to be my favorite month of 2012 so far. That it's the only month we've seen this year is a minor issue.

Read and Reading: 

I'm not sure I can properly convey how much I loved Nelson Mandela's autobiography Long Walk to Freedom. Everyone should read it for the history of South Africa, insight's into Mandela's life, and reflections on race relations and the injustices that occur around the world. It is surprisingly well written and even handed. He recognizes his missteps where appropriate and the gift of hindsight is readily apparent as he covers the years leading up to his inauguration as president of South Africa. It made me want to learn more about what happened after he became leader of the country he fought for- beyond what I learned from the movie Invictus. What struck me the most was how ordinary Mandela was but how the choices and decisions he made propelled him to become extraordinary. How inspiring is that?

Thomas Nelson sent me a complimentary copy of the young adult book First Date (McGee). It's kind of The Bachelor goes to high school mixed with Win a Date with Tad Hamilton. It's loosely based on Esther but it wasn't heavy handed with the parallels. Addy seems an introverted character, which we don't find too often. At times, the book went the predictable route but there were a few surprises I never saw coming. I don't want to give it away but I felt the ending could have been more satisfying. I could've done without the murdered missionary parents subplot and wish Addy's beliefs about dating had been more clear. Overall, I found this to be an enjoyable read.

Currently reading: The Language of Flowers (Diffenbaugh), Major Pettigrew's Last Stand (Simonson), When Helping Hurts (Corbett and Fikkert), and The War of Art (Pressfield).

Also reading Introverts in the Church (McHugh). I'm going to have much to say once I'm finished. Because Myers-Briggs has told me I'm an extrovert instead of acknowledging my many, many introvert tendencies. Have I been masking myself as an extrovert all these years?

On deck: The Resignation of Eve: What If Adam's Rib is No Longer Willing to be the Church's Backbone? (Henderson).

(I read 5 books this month. Still low but Mandela's book was 625 pages. That's got to count for something.)

TV: My must-see TV: Once Upon a Time, Downton Abbey, Revenge, Parenthood, Parks & Rec, The New Girl, The Vampire Diaries

People have all sorts of opinions on the start of Downton Abbey's second season. But personally? I love it. I love the characters, the plot development, and especially the witty dialogue. I can only imagine how I'm going to feel by the end of the season, where I've been assured all manner of good stuff occurs.

If you love Once Upon a Time, definitely weigh in at SortaCrunchy's weekly OUAT Tuesday posts. Great discussion about themes, who characters could be, and filtering through the prevalent theories.

Movies: The Swell Season documentary, a must-see for any fans of the movie Once 

Moneyball, which made me so excited for Spring Training to begin. I know it wasn't a competely accurate reflection of the A's season that year. It neglects to mention the team's star players, including my favorite White Sox Jermaine Dye (though I did hear his name on some game footage!) But as far as going into the psyche and persona of Billy Beane, the film more than delivers. Brad Pitt and Jonah Hill especially brought their characters to life in their scenes together. The behind-the-scenes action of trading players and the like was fascinating to this baseball fan.

Music: I saw The Civil Wars play their first show at the Ryman. Hallelujah and glory be.

New discoveries: The Head and the Heart (via Natalie Lloyd), Seryn (via Jess Bertram), Sarah Hart, Among Savages, Wye Oak (via @ineffablegod), David Robbins (via Knox McCoy), Walk Off the Earth (via Shawn Smucker)

I am obsessed with Gotye's Somebody That I Used to Know. Obsessed. I heard it a couple of months ago but didn't pursue it any further until the local radio station played it again last month. Now I can't get enough. I've listened to some of his other stuff- and it's great- but really I just want to listen to this song on repeat.

 

What have you been into this month?

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This Is How We Met: a new series

Every love story starts out the same: two people meet. There's a dizzying array of possibilities after that.

Sometimes the connection is instant; other times the pair loathe each other. Sometimes one person doesn't know the other exists. Sometimes it takes a few false starts before the romance becomes apparent. Or maybe they're friends for years before they start seeing each other in a new light.

"Tell me how you met." That was my favorite part of meeting new patients while I was a hospice social worker. Because no two stories were the same, even if they both started out at the same dance hall in Chicago.

I often marvel at how marriages come to be. If he had not stood in that particular corner, if she hadn't been running late for a meeting. Or she was dating someone else but he patiently waited just the same. Or, and this may be my favorite, if she hadn't asked him to dance.

At times, it seems a miracle that people fall in love and walk down the aisle.

On the days that I seem particularly bewildered by the notion of true love, I repeat to myself: it only has to happen once.

I've hated Valentine's Day for a long time. It's a cliche, I know. The single girl hating the Hallmark holiday. This past year I've intentionally appreciated the love already in my life, as inspired by this moving post from Tea. I know that I am very loved, even if my great romance hasn't yet occurred. I am amazed by the wonderful people in my life. Love really is all around us (bonus points if you name the movie).

Something about Valentine's Day makes me feel like friends and family aren't enough compared to Mr. Right. It makes me angry that my mind and heart so easily forget. I don't want to go down that tired road again this year.

In November 2011, I was struck by an idea. My own way of redeeming Valentine's Day. Starting February 1, 2012, I'm kicking off a new series called This Is How We Met.

(The Twitter hashtag will be #TIHWM, since it's apparently not a blog series until you have a hashtag. Or something like that.)

I've asked real life friends and blog friends to share their stories of how they met their spouse. After all, every marriage began with a first date. Something singles can relate to all too well.

I want this series to encourage those of us still looking.There's an intangible quality to why some relationships work out and others don't. Dating can be awkward, complicated, and exciting all in one. I hope that by hearing these stories, you will walk the path before you openly and adventurously. Because, seriously, we don't know how or if it will happen so you might as well enjoy the ride in the meantime.

I also want it to encourage those of you who are married- to look back and reflect on how your relationship has changed and grown since those initial days. Selfishly, I hope that by remembering those days before you knew your spouse was the one, you will better understand the single people in your life.

When I asked my friends to share their TIHWM story, I was blown away by the response. What was to initially be a February feature will now be an on-going series. I am so beyond words excited to share these stories with you.

Maybe one day I'll write my own TIHWM post. Until then, I'll enjoy and learn from yours.

TIHWM stories

Why the Grass Can Be Greener for Singles

It's easy to talk about bad dates and the frustrations of singleness. But when I write about those things, it's not the whole story.

I don't hide the fact that I'd like to be married. In high school, back when I thought I could plan out my life, I was certain I'd meet the man of my dreams in college, we'd get married after graduation, and start our family a couple of years after that. 

Would you like to know the truth? I'm glad, maybe even relieved, it didn't happen that way.

Singleness is not a curse. Marriage is not blissful nirvana 100% of the time. The grass is not always greener. 

I like my life. Most days I'm content.  I'm trying to make the most of this time in my life, no matter how long or short it is. I only wish I'd recognized this sooner! I've taken seriously the call to care for my own green grass. So today, I'd like to champion a few of the privileges of singleness. (Even though I like my life, I do hope that singleness is temporary. Ahem. Just needed to get that out of the way in case Mr. Right stumbles upon this post.)

If and when we do get married, we could be better people because of these things. Here are the top 5 privileges in being single:

1. Knowing Thyself

I'm a different person than I was in my early 20s. A more-evolved person. I know who I am and I like who I am. I also know what I need in a relationship. I am selective. It all comes down to knowing myself and recognizing my awesomeness.

"Prolonged" singleness is an opportunity in the making. Have deep discussions with friends until 2 in the morning over Papa John's breadsticks and whatever drinks are handy. Get therapy. Read. Dream. Analyze your friends' relationships. Pray.

What do YOU want out of life? Move toward it. What do you want in a romantic relationship? Don't settle for anything less.

2. Finding Worth in God Instead of a Spouse/Significant Other

Once upon a time, I had really poor taste in guys. So poor that I've thanked God for preventing me from dating a few of them, which in turn kept a certain moral intact. But even when I liked good guys, I would approach it all wrong. I wanted to get married so that I would feel worthy and affirmed. What a burden for any man to carry!

God made us exactly as we are.  He does not make any mistakes.

I'm so, so, so thankful I've learned this lesson. I don't take it as personally if the guy I like doesn't call. Their (in)actions are not a reflection of me. Finding my worth in God means I also have higher standards for what I want in a spouse. While I understand the allure of bad boys, now I want a good guy with a bit of an edge. Surely such diamonds in the rough exist.

3. Our Time is Ours

When I get home from work, there are no demands for my attention. I can read the newspaper or start cooking dinner. It's all up to me. I don't have to run plans past anyone. If I want to go to The Listening Room, I can.  If I want to watch a Gilmore Girls marathon, I most certainly can.

This is not to say that all we have is free time. On the contrary, we're often busy with a plethora of activities, on top of our full-time jobs and in addition to being sole caretaker of our homes (unless you have a roommate). The challenge for singles is to spend our time wisely.

Do you realize that married and parenting friends might be jealous of your free time? Sure, singles have plenty of moments that they wish they had a spouse or family with whom to share the joy or the burden. There are lonely moments. But having control over our time is not a bad deal.

4. Financial Independence

When I worked for hospice, I was shocked by the number of people completely unprepared financially when their spouse died. Some didn't know how to write a check or have the slightest clue about their financial status.

It would be nice to have another income in the mix but I'm proud of my financial accomplishments. I paid for half of college and all of grad school. That said, I'm still paying off my student loans. I've never had credit card debt. I have some savings. I tithe and give regularly. I've also taken some amazing vacations and enjoyed spending my money on White Sox games, concerts, and more.

This is the time to set financial goals. Decide on a lifestyle cap. Figure out which organizations you'd like to support. Get out of debt. Save for a house. You only have to answer to yourself and God about the way your income is spent. Throw a spouse in the mix and things can get a little complicated at times. You might as well figure things out now.

5. Adventures Galore!

I could list off so many experiences that probably wouldn't have happened if I'd married young. When you have to take another person's interests in to account, your goals and freedom naturally change. That's part of marriage- and that's a good thing. But since we're not yet married, we might as well take advantage of the opportunities before us.

So I say: dream. Write up a Life List and check things off. Live without regrets. Don't hold off on anything "until" you get married.  If God has purposed us to be single for this season, then let's do all that we can so that our lives glorify Him. And that means living passionately, openly, and adventurously. We will learn and grow in the process, which incidentally will only make us more attractive and interesting. That's not the point but it sure is a nice byproduct.

If you're single, how are you taking advantage of this season in your life? If you're married, have you ever felt like the grass was greener for your single friends?

The Next Level of Book-Nerdery

I could talk about books for days. Books I've read, books I want to read, what I'm reading right now, what you're reading right now, what your favorite book is, and so on.

Growing up, I liked running around outside with the other kids in the neighborhood but I was equally content to set up camp in the living room with my latest library book. I could read for hours at a time, unaware of anything other than the story before me. I recall my parents telling me to at least take my book outside so I could get a little fresh air. What can I say?

I am a certified book nerd. I've never tried to hide that fact and I relish knowing I'm not the only one. There are so many other book lovers out there!

And when I say book lover, I mean a lover of actual, physical books. I've been rather reticent about the e-Reader phenomenon. (More about that later.)

The last year or two people have asked if I'm on Goodreads. No, I'd answer, completely puzzled as to why I needed one more place to post things. After all, I mention the books I enjoy most here, along with thorough reviews of books sent from publishers.  However, my friends didn't think this was enough. "Anyone that reads as much as you do should be on there," they'd tell me.

Here's the thing. I like new technology but I'm pretty slow in adopting it, unless I see the direct benefit right away. An exception that comes to mind is Pinterest. I didn't need any convincing about that one. But Google +? I don't see the point.

So yeah, in my mind, Goodreads was just another time suck. I really didn't need another way to waste time on the internets.

But like every good thing, I kept hearing about it. And hearing about it. And hearing about it. Basically, they wore me down and I signed up for an account last week.

And now I feel like I've seen the light.

Goodreads is filled with book nerds just like me. Some of whom might be even nerdier than me. Crazy, right? Reviews galore and a nice place to contain all of your own hits and misses.  Plus, you can enter to win advance copies of books. You'd best believe that I entered to win quite a few.

Goodreads is a nice blend of social media. You can easily link your latest reviews to Twitter and Facebook, if you want. You can also get your friends' reviews emailed to you or be notified when a new review is up. Like Pinterest, I can spend as much or as little time there as I want. It's about making it work for me.

It won't hurt me to copy and paste the reviews I write here over there. Instead of scrolling through reviews on Amazon, I can scroll through the reviews on Goodreads to determine whether I'd like to read a book or not. Since the library supplies my reading habit, Goodreads will help me no longer be tempted by Amazon's evil one-click button.

All this to say, come find me on Goodreads if you'd like.

Oh, and about e-Readers? I pooled my Christmas and birthday money and bought a Nook Tablet. There are reasons, mostly to do with publishers sending more review copies via e-book these days. But still. I don't even know myself anymore.

What have you been reading lately?

Disclosure: Goodreads hasn't heard of me and I'm not getting any kickback for this post. I've simply been impressed by the site and wanted to spread the joy, in case you're a social media procrastinator like me.

The Beauty of Melancholy (music that moves me)

I sat in Belcourt Theater the other night in a likely dedicated audience. This was for the true fans. We came seeking insight, for a glimpse in to the workings of a favored band. We waited for The Swell Season to grace us with their presence. The theater darkened as the documentary began.

I'd long forgotten that a documentary covering the band's two year tour had been made. By chance, Belcourt was offering a second showing of the movie. It seemed perfectly paired with my birthday week.

My love affair with The Swell Season began with the movie Once. My friend Jill and I watched it one fall night, almost a year after we'd traveled to Ireland. The movie began unpretentiously and my heart soared with the songs. Jill and I pointed out the various places we'd been to in Dublin but mostly we were caught up in the story about a Guy and a Girl and the music they made.

Were Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova actors, musicians, both? How did they make such wonderful music together? Once blurred the lines while perfectly capturing What Might Have Been between its characters. We didn't get our happy ending but it seemed strangely fitting.

A couple of months later, Glen and Marketa picked up an Oscar for their song Falling Slowly. Their story became our story. I held on to Marketa's delayed acceptance speech for some time: "fair play to those who dare to dream and don’t give up."

There were rumors that Glen and Marketa dated in real life. That the movie romance became real. This seemed right and fitting.

But then came the release of The Swell Season's Strict Joy album in 2009. They'd broken up but managed to keep the band going. Out of their pain came remarkable music.

And so I came to The Swell Season documentary wondering what I would see. Would I root for their relationship or understand its demise?

As the movie played, I did both. We witnessed sweet, tender moments and what we saw was so good. We also saw a dischordance so obvious that it mystified me how they'd ever gotten together in the first place.

Glen worked hard at the musician's life for 17 years before finding a semblance of fame. Meanwhile, Marketa hadn't even graduated high school when they shot the movie. Almost two decades between them. She was uneasily thrust in to the limelight. He's a brooding artist to her matter of fact forthrightness. One scene toward the end is striking in their differing outlooks.

When Glen howls his way through a song or Marketa nearly cries her way through hers, we are swept up with them. We find beauty in their melancholy. Regardless of circumstances, music resonates and transcends. It helps us remember and sometimes even forget.

We never see their Great Romance or the actual break up but each scene shows us exactly what it should.

The movie left us wanting for more. We relate to the ache of what could be and what isn't.

When I got home that night, my friend called me, having done a little research already.

"Marketa married someone else," he announced.

There it was, a finality the movie couldn't give us.

 ***

The Ryman Auditorium show sold out in minutes. Too fast for my friends and I to get tickets. I thought my days as a Civil Wars groupie had come to an end but the week before the show, a friend asked me to go when her husband had to drop out.

Their first show at the Ryman. It was the stuff of dreams, theirs and ours. I remarked to my friend that it seemed like witnessing history. As I've sensed from the moment I discovered the band two years ago, this band is going places.

I'd be remiss if I didn't mention the opening act The Staves. Gorgeous spare harmonies. The three women stood in the center of the stage and captivated us all. I could almost forget that they weren't the reason we came.

But then Joy Williams and John Paul White stepped out on to the stage, looking very much at home. The music swept over us, one song after the next.

Pain, heartbreak, despair. Relationships in all their complexity and complications. The music exploring these maladies haunts us in the best of ways. As John Paul joked, there are bands that make you happy but the Civil Wars are not one of them. There's no denying their appeal, however.

Ever the entertainers, the mix of banter partnered with searing harmonies kept the audience entranced and garnered them not just one but three standing ovations.

(Since it's Nashville, there was the ubiquitous surprise guest appearance by Taylor Swift. She and The Civil Wars performed Safe and Sound, their contribution to The Hunger Games soundtrack.)

Without fail, I've cried at every Civil Wars show I've been to. This, my fifth, was no exception. It wasn't bad to cry- and it certainly didn't reflect my positive state of mind. Sometimes it's the music itself that gets to me but usually it's the lyrics that pierce my soul. I sat in the wooden pew two days after turning 32 and let the words wash over me. Then I dried my tears. I tapped my feet. I threw myself into the beauty of the evening.

Because 32 seems full of hope and yet I still relate to shades of gray. Maybe we need to remember the sad, pain-filled periods of our life to properly appreciate the good times. There is grace in processing where we were and where we'd like to be. I believe the gloom can illuminate our way, from darkness to light. So even though my outlook is good, I will continue to listen to music that moves me in this way.

They took the stage for their encore and left us awed over an unplugged Dance Me to the End of Love.  The last note hung over the auditorium begging to be plucked down. Instead, it hovered over a night we did not want to end.

We filed out of the warmth of the Ryman and in to the flurries sparkling the winter air. And this, too, felt right.

What music inspires you? Do you find beauty in the melancholy?

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